Where I Have Been, Good and Bad

Thursday, 3 December 2015

Hey guys, it's been a while since I posted. Sorry for that. I regularly upload to my Instagram (@adanink) so if you are interested you can follow me there. I have been feeling disengaged lately but I'm hoping that will change soon and things will get back to normal.

I don't want to be Negative Nancy but I'm human, and I feel like telling you I have not been feeling great lately. Not physically, it's just I have something inside that's bothering me. I have been listening to sappy miserable songs and drowned in a deep ocean of emotions. I'm currently listening to Coldplay's Ink, which is quite a sad song. "Got a tattoo and the pain's alright, just want a way of keeping you inside. All I know, all I know, is that I'm lost, whenever you go..."

I had an episode of panic attack a few days ago, in the middle of the night which is not fun at all. I always worry too much, I am always on edge and anxious. Having anxiety isolates me from people,
I don't really open up to anyone, even my husband. It sucks that I can't really connect to people around me, and it sucks even more when the only person I can connect to isn't in my life anymore. So yeah, that's been my life lately.

To end this on a positive note, I got tickets to watch Coldplay in Barcelona next year! 2 days in a row! If you have known me for a long time, I am obsessed with Coldplay. 80% of the time they're the only music I listen to. I find their music to be honest, personal, which can be either uplifting or just plain emotional. I talk about them non stop, stalk updates from them non stop. So when my husband agreed to take me see them in Barcelona I was so excited... well, excited is an understatement! There's really no words to describe how I felt when I got the tickets (if you love to watch concerts you know how stressful it is to get tickets, especially if it's Coldplay, or any huge band for that matter). My sister and I had a terrible experience in 2012, it was the MX era and we have arranged everything to watch Coldplay. Concert tickets, hotels, flights, basically everything. And then sometime before our flight, our agent who's supposed to take care of our visas and documents lost our passports. Long story short we did not get to go. It was very traumatic for us. I could not listen to Charlie Brown for about 2 years after that. I'm just hoping it will turn out okay this time and we actually get to go. After 2012 I have been keeping my expectations low when it comes to traveling. Wish us luck please. Watching Coldplay is my number 1 bucket list. I even said that "If I die the next day after I watch Coldplay I would be totally cool with that" Haha.

I have so many new stuff to share with you. I have been trying new products and I want to share a lot with you. Hopefully soon the fire inside me will come back and I can be jolly again! Makeup makes me happy so I want to write posts when I'm happy. If you want me to review or swatch products, or there's anything you want to know, let me know down below and I will try to write about it.

I love you.

Much love,
x

2 comments

  1. Bakal selalu nungguin postingan terbarulo. Semoga hari-harilo ke depan jadi semakin menyenangkan ya Daaaan!!! Just remember banyak yang love u and support u, amazing little woman! <3

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  2. I know that Coldplay makes a deserving sound. Their concerts https://ticketcrab.com/coldplay-tickets is always a grand event. My daughter and I were at the stadium and we have listened to the live performance of Chris. It's great! Each song is a little story. I really love Up&Up)

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